No News is Good News....promise.

Sorry....blogging just isn't on my mind....like ever. I'm sorry for those of you that this your way of staying updated on how I am doing. Fortunately I've been fantastic and I am living a normal (whatever that is) life! It sometimes seems as though all that we went through (which has just passed 4 years!!!) was forever ago or not even real?! I think that's great. I wouldn't wish it all on anyone but have truly been blessed by it all. None the less I'm glad it seems like my past and not my life now.

Anyways....I was to Cleveland mid August for my routine 3 month MRI and oncologist appointment and if I was technology savvy at all I would post the picture Mike took of my oncologist and I together. She's awesome. God gave us good news again in August. Stable....the world we've come to love.....again. Going at least every 3 months for the last 4 years we LOVE the word stable! My goal for my August appointment was not only for a stable report but also to express to my oncologist that these appointments were wearing on me...... had a rough few months.....lost a few great people to this disgusting disease.....watched a family that I adore lose a husband/father.......had a "suspicious" possible cancerous spot in my mouth removed with oral surgery (which seems to be fine).....just sick of sad crap to say the least. My oncologist has said from the beginning that she would consider letting me go 6 months between appointments after my MRI's had been stable for 5 years. Let me just remind you how awesome our God is......surgeon (top in the world) and oncologist all hoped I would go 2 to 3 years before needing surgery again.....so....yep....God is real good 4 years later. Anyway...I told her these things and she thought quietly for awhile and said, "Sure, I feel comfortable with not seeing you till after the first of the year!" Music to our ears! That was BIG, like GIGANTIC, like as big as the OCEAN! So I guess I've been on "leave" and LOVING it! Maybe that's why this whole cancer thing doesn't seem like my life anymore since this is the longest break I"ve had from it....I don't know and don't care. It's grand anyway. Maybe that's why I've not blogged.....I've been enjoying my "leave." Never the less I got the dreaded appointment letter in the mail about a month ago and yes it feels like there's an ugly dark cloud lingering again. It's folded up as small and discretely as possible...hoping maybe I can forget about it somewhat as long as possible. Yes....maybe avoidance is how I deal but oh well. I go back January 11....I think. I honestly don't remember right now. I feel great....I've enjoyed this break.

We're doing great as a family as well. Mike is happy as ever because it's hunting season.....gag. Luke is loving the first grade and doing great! We stay plenty busy and really we're enjoying it all.

Heart break and sadness seems to be everywhere.......I have a dear friend who has been dealing with great pain in a different way for a few years now and now another friend who is dear to us was recently diagnosed with cancer too. I go back to a song that seemed to bring me peace when this was all new to us......http://http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNeOmrq37MI&feature=related...... By the way this is a FIRST.....never have attempted to post a link....let's see if I actually did it right! :) Hope so.....hope you get to enjoy.

Until next time,
Jess

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!